You know, when people say that having kids changes your life forever, they are not joking.
I absolutely LOVE my babies - both of them. They are amazing in ways that I cannot describe, which is a funny feat, being as how neither really "talks" yet, both wear diapers and cry for lots of things. It's just that I am so pooped!
I don't know how some women do it. My mother for example - had two kids, my brother and myself (he was 3, I was newborn), was working AND going to school at the same time, being single (was married, husband ran off). HOW DO YOU DO THIS? Then of course I work with women who are not married but have kids. I know that they utilize day care, but they kill themselves to pay for it! So pricey!
I feel in some ways like I am in a prison - being at home - because I am no hobbit. I have an adventurous spirit like a lot of people and want to DO things in life, but now kids seem to put things on hold. I mean, I still work, though I am on maternity leave right now, but there were other things I did/was involved with before I had my daughter, and now my son, that don't do anymore. I don't see anybody really.
Going to the grocery store is a treat.
The only way I see this situation improving is to become independently wealthy utilizing a marketable skill and push through those pesky barriers such as breast feeding, burping, constant diaper changes, etc...lol. If only...hehe
Then I remind myself - this stage isn't forever. I had forgotten how much a newborn is dependent on mommy. Mommy need be on hand every moment for baby needs. My daughter is not yet two, and though she needs almost a constant eye, at least I can get housework done with her nearby - my son, 3 1/2 weeks old, is not so independent (to say the least). But it's over so fast....Everybody who has a kid also says to enjoy every moment of this time, even though right now I am fantasizing about them getting older - so if they were right about the life changing thing, I should heed their advice on this end too I suppose, and enjoy every moment with my little snuggle buddy. :)
Our house - no updates. We received something like a preliminary HUD, and our real estate agent says closing should be by the 17th. It's scary - buying your first house. I've never been tied down anywhere, so to own a home in my hometown feels a bit suffocating to me. Still, with two little ones and family this close by, how could I pass this up? It feels right, even though it's scary (does that even make sense?). I'm sure I am making sense. We always think no one understand our situations or how we're feeling, but I think that really, we all think and feel very much alike, and it's some sick ploy by the ultimate enemy that wants us to feel so segregated and alone in our mind and emotions....
hmm...
Well, believe it or not, I found the time to make some baked chicken, so I am typing on borrowed time here...Gotta go!
I absolutely LOVE my babies - both of them. They are amazing in ways that I cannot describe, which is a funny feat, being as how neither really "talks" yet, both wear diapers and cry for lots of things. It's just that I am so pooped!
I don't know how some women do it. My mother for example - had two kids, my brother and myself (he was 3, I was newborn), was working AND going to school at the same time, being single (was married, husband ran off). HOW DO YOU DO THIS? Then of course I work with women who are not married but have kids. I know that they utilize day care, but they kill themselves to pay for it! So pricey!
I feel in some ways like I am in a prison - being at home - because I am no hobbit. I have an adventurous spirit like a lot of people and want to DO things in life, but now kids seem to put things on hold. I mean, I still work, though I am on maternity leave right now, but there were other things I did/was involved with before I had my daughter, and now my son, that don't do anymore. I don't see anybody really.
Going to the grocery store is a treat.
The only way I see this situation improving is to become independently wealthy utilizing a marketable skill and push through those pesky barriers such as breast feeding, burping, constant diaper changes, etc...lol. If only...hehe
Then I remind myself - this stage isn't forever. I had forgotten how much a newborn is dependent on mommy. Mommy need be on hand every moment for baby needs. My daughter is not yet two, and though she needs almost a constant eye, at least I can get housework done with her nearby - my son, 3 1/2 weeks old, is not so independent (to say the least). But it's over so fast....Everybody who has a kid also says to enjoy every moment of this time, even though right now I am fantasizing about them getting older - so if they were right about the life changing thing, I should heed their advice on this end too I suppose, and enjoy every moment with my little snuggle buddy. :)
Our house - no updates. We received something like a preliminary HUD, and our real estate agent says closing should be by the 17th. It's scary - buying your first house. I've never been tied down anywhere, so to own a home in my hometown feels a bit suffocating to me. Still, with two little ones and family this close by, how could I pass this up? It feels right, even though it's scary (does that even make sense?). I'm sure I am making sense. We always think no one understand our situations or how we're feeling, but I think that really, we all think and feel very much alike, and it's some sick ploy by the ultimate enemy that wants us to feel so segregated and alone in our mind and emotions....
hmm...
Well, believe it or not, I found the time to make some baked chicken, so I am typing on borrowed time here...Gotta go!
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