Mrs. Dr. told me I need to watch my weight, as I have gained 6 pounds in 4 weeks. :) Well, to be fair, I haven't gained any weight other than that in my 21 weeks thus far, and I'm sure at least half of those 6 pounds is from all the eating out Brian and I have been doing over the past couple of weeks, due to traveling during the week. Otherwise, I am a very decent eater. I am actually quite sick of eating out. I don't know how people do it on a regular basis. I didn't tell the doc that, but she said "watch your weight and easy on the junk food!"
Lady, I rarely eat "junk" food :) and the bits I scarf now are definitely r/t being pregnant. Post baby, we are going back to vegan. It's hard to live my life with meat once you get used to living without it. Then again, it's a paradox, because I CRAVE it when I'm pregnant. I crave it, but it's a hassle to prepare, hassle to order...and afterwards I feel dirty. lol.
ANYWAY - My husband has been my constant reinforcer, telling me how pretty I am, and he's so lucky, blah blah all that sugar and spice :) Of course I am very happy and grateful for it, I just wish I could internalize it right now.
Let's face it (or at least I will face it myself). Whenever I'm pregnant, I feel FAT. I'm bloated, my self image becomes distorted.
I cannot wait to be done with this - and we are WAITING next time around, for number 3. I am whipping this body back into A1 shape, and hopefully even better than before.
I don't want to be a waif, definitely not - but I know the size I can get down to and still look "normal," and that's what I want. Health for crying out loud.
There are reasons for avoiding heftiness that have nothing to do with looking cute in clothing - Being obese or even just "overwight" thrusts you up into a category where you become more at risk for almost EVERYTHING cardiovascular, and even a lot of respiratory and endocrine issues. It's not pretty. There is a hidden reason for the "stigma" against heavy people, and it has little to do with looks for me.
Some people ARE larger, and you know what? That's one thing. My brother is a big boy. 6'4 and thick (not chub, but thick). He works out all the time, but does not have those rippling body builder muscles, and perhaps that's because he doesn't lift as they do, but the point is, he gets his blood pumping, keeps his numbers in check, and eats well. He's thick and can't help it. But just by looking at somebody, you may not be able to tell their habits right off the bat.
I am not talking about those people. People who have the "stigma" usually have the tell tale "muffin top," "beer belly," "thunder thighs...." I just want to grab a hold of those people and run with them on a track or something (or walk with good posture). It's not about aesthetics, it's about your HEALTH. You may not have any issues - yet - but just you wait. Weight isn't a laughing matter. We need to be active. Technology has done us a great disservice in this manner.
Well, being pregnant and having a belly makes me feel like I have a muffin top right now - especially since at 21 weeks you don't really have "a bump," but just a "poof" that looks like you ate at one too many buffets.
For someone like me who takes a certain amount of pride in the fact that I've ALWAYS had a smooth, flat belly (lots of work...no 6 pack, just a smooth belly), this damages my pride. Happy about baby, sad about baby body.
Then there are these women I see who are back to flat belly in a manner of weeks after giving birth. What the heck is up with that?? I was so sore "down there" from being torn and stitched up, and then all the bleeding, that I didn't have the desire to work on my abs. I bet some of these girls didn't have the time either, and just naturally shrunk. Those stinkers.
I can't think of losing weight right now though - I just need to (as the good doc says) "watch my weight." I shot up 40 pounds with my daughter, and so far only 5-10 with this one, but I still have 19-20 weeks to go.
Maybe I need to make the switch to vegan earlier rather than later. I usually just let my cravings take me because I don't crave "bad" foods, just foods that contain animal products - milk, meats, cheeses. I figure, "If I'm craving it, the baby must want it." Also, I tend to be anemic, so a little blood and iron won't hurt :). The hubbs and I never went vegan for animals anyway - we went for general health improvement.
Becoming vegan actually inspired me to change a lot of things in life. I was even cooking more because I could be creative and shock people with tasty foods that contained no trace of animal anything :) I didn't lose weight though - that'll only come by eating right AND exercise :) Well, with work, two babies, personal life to live and a household to run, I'll get things in order!
I can't wait to look cute in clothing again...
Lady, I rarely eat "junk" food :) and the bits I scarf now are definitely r/t being pregnant. Post baby, we are going back to vegan. It's hard to live my life with meat once you get used to living without it. Then again, it's a paradox, because I CRAVE it when I'm pregnant. I crave it, but it's a hassle to prepare, hassle to order...and afterwards I feel dirty. lol.
ANYWAY - My husband has been my constant reinforcer, telling me how pretty I am, and he's so lucky, blah blah all that sugar and spice :) Of course I am very happy and grateful for it, I just wish I could internalize it right now.
Let's face it (or at least I will face it myself). Whenever I'm pregnant, I feel FAT. I'm bloated, my self image becomes distorted.
I cannot wait to be done with this - and we are WAITING next time around, for number 3. I am whipping this body back into A1 shape, and hopefully even better than before.
I don't want to be a waif, definitely not - but I know the size I can get down to and still look "normal," and that's what I want. Health for crying out loud.
There are reasons for avoiding heftiness that have nothing to do with looking cute in clothing - Being obese or even just "overwight" thrusts you up into a category where you become more at risk for almost EVERYTHING cardiovascular, and even a lot of respiratory and endocrine issues. It's not pretty. There is a hidden reason for the "stigma" against heavy people, and it has little to do with looks for me.
Some people ARE larger, and you know what? That's one thing. My brother is a big boy. 6'4 and thick (not chub, but thick). He works out all the time, but does not have those rippling body builder muscles, and perhaps that's because he doesn't lift as they do, but the point is, he gets his blood pumping, keeps his numbers in check, and eats well. He's thick and can't help it. But just by looking at somebody, you may not be able to tell their habits right off the bat.
I am not talking about those people. People who have the "stigma" usually have the tell tale "muffin top," "beer belly," "thunder thighs...." I just want to grab a hold of those people and run with them on a track or something (or walk with good posture). It's not about aesthetics, it's about your HEALTH. You may not have any issues - yet - but just you wait. Weight isn't a laughing matter. We need to be active. Technology has done us a great disservice in this manner.
Well, being pregnant and having a belly makes me feel like I have a muffin top right now - especially since at 21 weeks you don't really have "a bump," but just a "poof" that looks like you ate at one too many buffets.
For someone like me who takes a certain amount of pride in the fact that I've ALWAYS had a smooth, flat belly (lots of work...no 6 pack, just a smooth belly), this damages my pride. Happy about baby, sad about baby body.
Then there are these women I see who are back to flat belly in a manner of weeks after giving birth. What the heck is up with that?? I was so sore "down there" from being torn and stitched up, and then all the bleeding, that I didn't have the desire to work on my abs. I bet some of these girls didn't have the time either, and just naturally shrunk. Those stinkers.
I can't think of losing weight right now though - I just need to (as the good doc says) "watch my weight." I shot up 40 pounds with my daughter, and so far only 5-10 with this one, but I still have 19-20 weeks to go.
Maybe I need to make the switch to vegan earlier rather than later. I usually just let my cravings take me because I don't crave "bad" foods, just foods that contain animal products - milk, meats, cheeses. I figure, "If I'm craving it, the baby must want it." Also, I tend to be anemic, so a little blood and iron won't hurt :). The hubbs and I never went vegan for animals anyway - we went for general health improvement.
Becoming vegan actually inspired me to change a lot of things in life. I was even cooking more because I could be creative and shock people with tasty foods that contained no trace of animal anything :) I didn't lose weight though - that'll only come by eating right AND exercise :) Well, with work, two babies, personal life to live and a household to run, I'll get things in order!
I can't wait to look cute in clothing again...
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